Mengharukan! Curahan Hati Marshanda Tak Bisa Setiap Saat di Dekat Anak Semata Wayang

TRIBUN-TIMUR.COM - Artis peran Marshanda sedang kesepian di sela kesibukannya mengisi berbagai acara.

Kesepian karena tidak bisa bertatata muka setiap saat dengan anak semata wayangnya Sienna Kasyafani.

Kasih sayangnya sebagai ibu kini dibatasi jarak. 

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Marshanda kini menuliskan sebuah curhatan panjang dan memilukan dalam akun Instagram pribadinya.

Caca, panggilan Marshanda, juga mengunggah foto kebersamaannya dengan sang anak, Sienna Kasyafani.

Caca menuliskan curhatan pilu mengenai apa yang dirasakannya setelah bercerai.

Mantan istri Ben Kasyafani ini sedih tak lagi bisa tinggal bersama sang anak sejak tiga tahun lalu.

Meski akses bertemu sang anak selama ini cukup mudah, rasa rindu tak bisa dihindari oleh Caca.

Caca hanya bisa menangis setiap kali dirinya merasakan rindu mendalam pada Sienna.

"-Part 1 of 1-
.
What can I do
I am guilty
Of losing you.
.
What can i do
I am guilty
Not blaming my illness but that is my weakness.
.
I got lost. 
And nobody wins when they tried to save me from falling.
I had to fall. Says God.
.
And until today I cant see why I had to.
Cause it got me losing you.
.
I am guilty and I am ashamed.
People talk about me behind my back.
Saying I can’t bear sanity. 
I can’t bear life.
Because I am ill.
.
And now what should I do.
When all I can think about is the thought of losing you.
My daughter.
.
And I miss you, everyday.
And I cry for you, everyday.
I am lost. And in this case I am lost forever.
.
I can only hope and pray for miracle.
I dont even believe that I still deserve the feeling of hope.
I’ve made too big of a mistake.
.
I am left with questions and tears.
I saw people around me. 
Being allowed to be with their children.
Pushing me far away from the right self-concept I am supposed to have about myself.
Pushing me far away from seeing myself as a capable human being. Capable of being a mother.
.
I have lost.
I’ve lost you and I lost everything.
And I‘ve forgotten how to have hope.
Tried to understand this chapter of life.
And I can’t understand a thing.
The inner wisdom I usually find in me, is in silence.
.
God help me.
I am lost.
I am ashamed.
What are You trying to tell me?
I am lost.
And everybody talks behind my back.
About how it is normal for me to lose.
How it makes sense.
.
So I just try to bear with the thought of living with my worst self.
The incapable human. The inadequate parent. The one nobody can trust. 
And carry on.
And carry on.
And carry on.
.
.
#motivation #honesty #vulnerabilityispower #vulnerabilityisstrength #positivity
#empowerment #marshedpoem #marshedQuote
#enlightenement
#motivationandpositivity
#innerstrength #innerpeace
#intellectualhearts."

Dalam curhatannya tersebut, Caca hanya ingin mengungkapkan apa yang dirasakannya dengan penuh kejujuran dan kerapuhan hatinya.

Namun Caca tak hanya ingin membagikan apa yang dirasakannya ini saja.